Today I was driving back from a camping trip in Wisconsin. It was a quite trip home, my wife was sleeping in the passenger seat and the cool fall air was refreshing, leaving me plenty of opportunity to think. Some where in between thoughts I began to wonder if I really believed, what I claimed to believe in. Have you ever felt like that? As if you know deep in your heart there is something right and true, but wondering if that is what you are seeking? If you’re like me, we’re not the only ones who have doubted. John the Baptist had his moment of doubt as well, and he was the guy who was sent to prepare the way for Jesus. There also was Thomas, a man who spent nearly three years with Jesus, and yet still doubted that Jesus had risen from the dead. These guys knew Jesus personally, and they still had their moments of doubt. I don’t know why I doubt from time to time. So if you’re like me or John or Thomas, I thank God for you. I also thank God for his grace so even in my doubting he still loves and rescues me. This I do know for sure, his love and grace are big enough to rescue even the deepest of doubters…some days that doubter is me.
“My Lord and my God!” Thomas exclaimed. Then Jesus told him, “You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.” –John 20:29&29
Strong and believing in some areas, but wavering and uncertain in others. Doubt seems to find our vulnerability.
ReplyDeleteLord, I believe. Help, Thou, mine unbelief!
ReplyDeleteSo glad we have a Father who accepts us, even when we may not "live up" to what we think we should be. Who knows us deeply when we wonder sometimes who we are. His hope and grace is real and deep and true.
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